Saturday, January 24, 2009pUttiNg my blog on permissions..feeling like kipiN tis blog to myself instead
of publishin to pple out ther...wat mite they tink of me..haixx...
Reading past entries....last2 year post...
da moMEnt i spend mY tyme wiF euu..how i wish
i can be happie like b4... tyme changes n pple too does change..
others were blamed fer someone's changed in attitude..
thaT isnt fair..no matter how i try n no matter wat he does to
hurt me..i still love hiM shO much..tried nt to shoW how mucH i felt
fer hiM coz wat he gonna do is owaez break mY heart agaiN n agaiN..
pple call me StupID goiN afta him even after wat he did to me..
wen i miss hIm ..tryiN nt to mentioN it..esp dun wanna hurt others feeling..
even wifout him knowin it..coz how i feel wun matter to him..
beinG his gf mayB juz in name..i dun noe hw to describe mY feeliNgs..n i will nVA noe hw to
do tat..its juz simply feeliNg..da feeliNG tat i nva felt b4 wif any ota guY..mayb its nt call
luV...coz i noe da feelin oF luV..coz pple ard me loves me shO much..
bUT im still afta someone hu................???
iF i carn understand mYself..mY situation...n my feeliNgs ..
i wonder hw pple cn do tat...
eacH dae u gave me happiness...give me laughter..protect me..be there fer me..
shower me wif luV...buT i ignore all dat..i want everyting frm u even u r nt mine..
not having to tinK wat ur feeliNgs might be...i owaes wanted others to put aside their ego..n juz give me happiness...but i dun noe hw long u cn bare tis..wif that smile n laughter on
da outside...i noe hw much u r being hurt by me..sorry fer givinG u like false hope all
tis while but trust me that ain't my intention....im juz afraid euu might walk off frm mY life..
n i dun want that to happen...nt even now after i got bf...i noe wateva i did wif u is rong..
buT i dun care..i wanna make myself happie...hold me kiss me...everyting..i let it be coz i dun wanna lost da feeling of love.........i dun want euu to ever leave me..
barin tis pain all alone..leaving life full of dilemma.......
wat am i actuallu searchin fer...
of publishin to pple out ther...wat mite they tink of me..haixx...
Reading past entries....last2 year post...
da moMEnt i spend mY tyme wiF euu..how i wish
i can be happie like b4... tyme changes n pple too does change..
others were blamed fer someone's changed in attitude..
thaT isnt fair..no matter how i try n no matter wat he does to
hurt me..i still love hiM shO much..tried nt to shoW how mucH i felt
fer hiM coz wat he gonna do is owaez break mY heart agaiN n agaiN..
pple call me StupID goiN afta him even after wat he did to me..
wen i miss hIm ..tryiN nt to mentioN it..esp dun wanna hurt others feeling..
even wifout him knowin it..coz how i feel wun matter to him..
beinG his gf mayB juz in name..i dun noe hw to describe mY feeliNgs..n i will nVA noe hw to
do tat..its juz simply feeliNg..da feeliNG tat i nva felt b4 wif any ota guY..mayb its nt call
luV...coz i noe da feelin oF luV..coz pple ard me loves me shO much..
bUT im still afta someone hu................???
iF i carn understand mYself..mY situation...n my feeliNgs ..
i wonder hw pple cn do tat...
eacH dae u gave me happiness...give me laughter..protect me..be there fer me..
shower me wif luV...buT i ignore all dat..i want everyting frm u even u r nt mine..
not having to tinK wat ur feeliNgs might be...i owaes wanted others to put aside their ego..n juz give me happiness...but i dun noe hw long u cn bare tis..wif that smile n laughter on
da outside...i noe hw much u r being hurt by me..sorry fer givinG u like false hope all
tis while but trust me that ain't my intention....im juz afraid euu might walk off frm mY life..
n i dun want that to happen...nt even now after i got bf...i noe wateva i did wif u is rong..
buT i dun care..i wanna make myself happie...hold me kiss me...everyting..i let it be coz i dun wanna lost da feeling of love.........i dun want euu to ever leave me..
barin tis pain all alone..leaving life full of dilemma.......
wat am i actuallu searchin fer...
