Saturday, November 17, 2007haixz..carN sleeP..dun no Y..i'M shO sad i carN finD a friend..
i wana prepare a surprise fer DeaR bdae nExt mth..coz iT hiS first tyme celebratinG hiz bdae..
sho i wanT tO give hiM a speciaL one..buT i have no onE to helP me ouT..nT a sinGle one OF them wana helP me wen i nided..i carn owaez depends oN dear..therz sumtymes i nid to ask others fer help..haixz..was thinkiNG hw i wana manage tis alone..
onE tinG i stiL dun understand about hiM..i duN noe y he kipS hating me..n y he kip grudges..
Y is it shO hard 4 hiM to learn to fergive n ferget..mayb he is that type of person..wateva i use to nasihat him..he oso dun care..i noe y he dun wana help me coz he stiL hate me fer wateva i have done n said..
Like wat i used to tolD my dear..i dun understanD wiF some pple character..iNcludinG hiM..buT wen i explain things oUT to him..he understands y i'm behaving that way..n y i believe that way..
coz thatz mY type of persoN no matter wat pple did to me or huRT me..eveN da persOn hu takes away my virginity..i stiL fergive..coz i noe sumTyme thaT is nT wat u wanT tO happen..
i carn blame him fer taking away mY virgin..coz i must remember at thaT poiNt of tyme i love hIM shO much n i'M wiling to do aniting..shO doesn't mean i break up wif hiM..i must blame him fer everYthiNG rite..ya i dun denY it..at first i'm reaLi mad at HIm..but hw loNG cn tis goes ON??wuN u want to learn n forget da past n forgive..wat wiL u get if u continue to blame n hate??tis is an example of da situatioN..
shO i explain everytinG to B coz he kipS askiNG y i stiL frend wif sumoNe hu have hurt me..
shO y carn pple do da same fer me if i carn do fer them..juz ferget da past n forgive..i noe itz hard but u carn continue u hate sumone..
ya sumtymes pple do sae that i'm good at pretending ntg happen..lik wat B saes ..thats coz i duN wana drag any matter fer sho long..wat do i get..even if i hurt pple..it stiL hurt me..wat i want is friend not enemies..but seriously i dun blame them..they have their own life..but thEy duN eveN pity me..i juZ oni fer one dae..but all of them carn b bothered..
Y u guys hate me shO much?? y?? did i did stg that u guyz carn forgive me n ferget..haixz..
tis is wat life is all about..itz all my fault ..my attitude makes pple dun wana b friend wif me..ya wen i used to have bF..i left mY sis..my friendz..thatz y nw itz mY turn to feel iT..
liza sediH sekali!!!
i wana prepare a surprise fer DeaR bdae nExt mth..coz iT hiS first tyme celebratinG hiz bdae..
sho i wanT tO give hiM a speciaL one..buT i have no onE to helP me ouT..nT a sinGle one OF them wana helP me wen i nided..i carn owaez depends oN dear..therz sumtymes i nid to ask others fer help..haixz..was thinkiNG hw i wana manage tis alone..
onE tinG i stiL dun understand about hiM..i duN noe y he kipS hating me..n y he kip grudges..
Y is it shO hard 4 hiM to learn to fergive n ferget..mayb he is that type of person..wateva i use to nasihat him..he oso dun care..i noe y he dun wana help me coz he stiL hate me fer wateva i have done n said..
Like wat i used to tolD my dear..i dun understanD wiF some pple character..iNcludinG hiM..buT wen i explain things oUT to him..he understands y i'm behaving that way..n y i believe that way..
coz thatz mY type of persoN no matter wat pple did to me or huRT me..eveN da persOn hu takes away my virginity..i stiL fergive..coz i noe sumTyme thaT is nT wat u wanT tO happen..
i carn blame him fer taking away mY virgin..coz i must remember at thaT poiNt of tyme i love hIM shO much n i'M wiling to do aniting..shO doesn't mean i break up wif hiM..i must blame him fer everYthiNG rite..ya i dun denY it..at first i'm reaLi mad at HIm..but hw loNG cn tis goes ON??wuN u want to learn n forget da past n forgive..wat wiL u get if u continue to blame n hate??tis is an example of da situatioN..
shO i explain everytinG to B coz he kipS askiNG y i stiL frend wif sumoNe hu have hurt me..
shO y carn pple do da same fer me if i carn do fer them..juz ferget da past n forgive..i noe itz hard but u carn continue u hate sumone..
ya sumtymes pple do sae that i'm good at pretending ntg happen..lik wat B saes ..thats coz i duN wana drag any matter fer sho long..wat do i get..even if i hurt pple..it stiL hurt me..wat i want is friend not enemies..but seriously i dun blame them..they have their own life..but thEy duN eveN pity me..i juZ oni fer one dae..but all of them carn b bothered..
Y u guys hate me shO much?? y?? did i did stg that u guyz carn forgive me n ferget..haixz..
tis is wat life is all about..itz all my fault ..my attitude makes pple dun wana b friend wif me..ya wen i used to have bF..i left mY sis..my friendz..thatz y nw itz mY turn to feel iT..
liza sediH sekali!!!
